I can’t turn to anyone I’m close to about this because they’ll just think I’m crazy. Totally bonkers. Something clicked in my mind today at work. I had another out of body experience, and what I got from it totally blew my mind. Over the past few years my psychic abilities had been weakening. I never fully understood why, but I see it clear as day now. Adderall. I’ve only been off it for a little while now, but in that time I’ve been having all sorts of familiar psychic experiences. Astral travels, increased vivid dreams, crystal clear visions. And they’re all utterly unavoidable. My visions are so sharp that my body can’t even handle them. I get all dizzy and lightheaded. Tunneled sight on the outside, vivacious wonderland on the inside.
I don’t even know how to explain it. I’m special. I know I’m special. I’ve always been the “spacey girl” growing up. A wanderer. Little do they know my “spaciness” was just another OBE. When I was a little girl I was so scared of my visions. I’d try to push my thoughts away; pretend like they didn’t exist. Do everything I could to stop them. They never went away, and they always came true. Always.
I spoke with a healer about a year ago. She told me I have a gift ~Clairvoyance~Precognition~Psychometry~ That I needed to shine light to my powers and heal others myself. I kind of brushed it off when she told me that, but today’s astral projection gave me the insight that I was brought into this world to help others. To harmonize. It brings me to tears to know I have wasted so many precious years artificially blocking out my special powers just so I could ”concentrate better” in life. Fuck that. I’m a healer, hear me ROAR. :p